Its not a scoreboard..thats my age. Two days ago i turned 30. And to make matters worse, Amit is out of town. I'd been dreading this day eversince i got to the wrong side of 25.. but i dint think id have to face it alone.
But here i was on the eve of my birthday, sitting alone on my couch thinking about the life gone by... the good, the bad and the oh-i-so-want-to-forget-it times. I missed my early twenties.. the fun, the carefreeness, the casualness, the parties, the adventures.. i miss how i used to look back then... things just seem worse when there is no icecream to accompany the thinking. I wont be able to tick the "Age 25-29" box while filling up forms anymore. Arrrgggh
And then the phone rang. Dimple, my best friend, called and sang "happy b'day". It was midnight and it felt good to hear her being silly on the phone (she also sent me flowers and chocolates later that day :)). A few more calls and i went to bed feeling not-so-bad. Early morning there was a very sweet message from a friend, the kinds that just brighten up your day...and hmmmm.. if its starting out like this, then it shouldnt be THAT bad.. isn't it. More calls, messages and emails came.. and suddenly..just like that... i realized.. i wasnt alone. old friends, new friends, school friends, work friends - i had company the whole day thru! people kept calling and messaging.. i wasn't alone. :)
A very dear friend, who knew about my thoughts on turning 30, wished me by saying "Apna, you are 20, with 10 years experience". He is a funny one. But what an uplifting way to look at it :) i was ready to take on the world right then.
This blog is the first step im taking towards rediscovering myself. I may not get my old waistline back.. but boy am i going to give getting "old" a fight! And as girish said.. 30s are much better than 20s not just because you are more mature but also because you are not that lost, you know who your real friends are..and you know what you really like.
I am liking this being 30 thing. Its been two days and i can still feel the positive energy around me..i love the friends i have. i love my little family. and when there is so much love.. things can only be good. I guess one has to be out of the twenties to see the world from this perspective. The view is good from here my friend.
But here i was on the eve of my birthday, sitting alone on my couch thinking about the life gone by... the good, the bad and the oh-i-so-want-to-forget-it times. I missed my early twenties.. the fun, the carefreeness, the casualness, the parties, the adventures.. i miss how i used to look back then... things just seem worse when there is no icecream to accompany the thinking. I wont be able to tick the "Age 25-29" box while filling up forms anymore. Arrrgggh
And then the phone rang. Dimple, my best friend, called and sang "happy b'day". It was midnight and it felt good to hear her being silly on the phone (she also sent me flowers and chocolates later that day :)). A few more calls and i went to bed feeling not-so-bad. Early morning there was a very sweet message from a friend, the kinds that just brighten up your day...and hmmmm.. if its starting out like this, then it shouldnt be THAT bad.. isn't it. More calls, messages and emails came.. and suddenly..just like that... i realized.. i wasnt alone. old friends, new friends, school friends, work friends - i had company the whole day thru! people kept calling and messaging.. i wasn't alone. :)
A very dear friend, who knew about my thoughts on turning 30, wished me by saying "Apna, you are 20, with 10 years experience". He is a funny one. But what an uplifting way to look at it :) i was ready to take on the world right then.
This blog is the first step im taking towards rediscovering myself. I may not get my old waistline back.. but boy am i going to give getting "old" a fight! And as girish said.. 30s are much better than 20s not just because you are more mature but also because you are not that lost, you know who your real friends are..and you know what you really like.
I am liking this being 30 thing. Its been two days and i can still feel the positive energy around me..i love the friends i have. i love my little family. and when there is so much love.. things can only be good. I guess one has to be out of the twenties to see the world from this perspective. The view is good from here my friend.
Goooooooood Start... Expecting more ..
ReplyDeleteHmmm... thats a nice one.. i enjoyed reading it while i was on my way to work in the early hours... reading this i realize that even i am a 'soon to be 30' person.. good stuff didi.. would definitely look forward for more of your experiences :)... babbi
ReplyDeleteOoo I missed this post. Nice to know that you've taken the "turning 30" in good spirits. I hope I'm also in the same level as you are in when I'm turning 30. This post was a really good start... :)
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